I’m persistent, I’m determined and I’m diligent. That’s how I define myself. So when the result turns out not to be satisfying, I always think why I always can’t do it though I’ve burst my gut to do? That’s unfair. While still holding the belief that I am the one forgotten by god, I tried to have a closer look to excellent people I know. Perhaps, just since then I feel a shame about how I view myself and stop that childish complaints.
Efficiency and Concentration
Let’s start with an example as we both are going to search some references online for our case analysis. We have the same searching engine and start at the same time.
what we’ve got are the exact same results. And what’s happening following is gonna be different. What she focus on is just this…
and it took her maybe 10 minutes to finish what she wants. While what I was focusing was first this,of course,
then go for this one and later,
the scale is going to expand even more. Then half an hour later, I end up with sort of like, what I’m doing? I totally forgot what I wanted to do initially and even what’s the things I am doing now for.
The result is she not only got the references and maybe had already finished part of her work, while I still remain the same or maybe, even worse, I wasted more than 30 minutes to do nothing.
Persistence
I’m gonna tell another story and you’ll see some qualifications I said, may not be true. I’m not a night person, staying up late would be a torture to me. Once I stayed up till 2 am to do a project and got up at 8 am next morning, waking up with a great sense of achievement, “I went to bed at 2 and I still get up so early to work! See? How hard working I am!” It was just not long after that when I heard the conversation between two top students of our department by chance, feeling like the pride at that moment is like a slap on my face, “You wanna some coffee? Three whole nights in a row would strain out of you…”
“Not that bad, and there are still something need to work on.”
Expectations for result
I don’t know about you but for myself, to things I’ve spent plenty of time on, (even it’s just I assume that I have put my heart on, whiout comparing with people working even much harder) I tend to have a really high expectations of the result. However, after talking with people I view as really successful in many aspects, it turned out the results are usually not the standards for them to consider the effect of their work.
Here comes the difference of how we view expectations, or precisely, we both have high expectations, just in different phases. For me apparently, I focus on the result even I know some details during my work were not so perfect, but I think I took time to do it, I deserve it. Conversely, successful ones always emphasis on details at each stage and they think all of they’ve done will bring out the results corresponding to their efforts.
Now, I need to review the three elements I mentioned to describe myself, and just want to say, stop railing, pull up socks and find something to do!